Believe it or not, it's just me!

Yeah, I know it's been a while, but I should let my mindsay friends know that I am still alive and kicking.  No blog entries lately because I'm still playing this actress who is a mother of 3 in an isolated and desperate situation.  In my role, I've decided I needed some excitement in my life and put my house up for sale.  Someone bought it and now I want to play the "I was just kidding card". 

Fuck.  Now I have to move.  In this Mom role I'm playing, I have to figure everything out - finances, kids, school districts, school transferes, parking situation, address change forms, utility transfers, day care, special ed classes, therapy, 1st grader homework, and have dinner on the table by 6:00.  Bathtime, bedtime, put the kids back in their own beds again, Max and Ruby, Then hope my husband has some energy after his long day to take care of business.

Life is good.

I was offered a job today and then I realized I was the center of the government skum.  I turned it down.  Why?  Well if I take it, I'd have to work.  I am the problem.  not the solution.  I'm gonna go try to sleep on that one.

I have just lost 2 hours of my life that I will never be able to regain.  I'm pretty upset about it too.  I didn't mean to do it, but I sat down and there was this movie on, "Bring it on".  I accidentally watched it.  I confess.  Now I feel like I need to go scrub the kitchen floor again to make up for it.  I feel guilty as if I did something wrong.  I did...and I did not even really enjoy it.  I suck.  I need to go pray and ask for forgiveness now...  

Sure wish I could sleep.  This is really getting old.